All week long I have been looking forward to Saturday. Earlier in the week, Monday, I think, I called a lady I had meet at an open AA meeting with my husband. I asked her if she would have lunch with me sometime soon and we settled on Saturday. I went on to explain to her that I called her because I need her help. She is an active Al-Anon participant, and I am hoping that she can help me craft a tangible program. She is kind, calm, and easy to get along with.
But now its Saturday morning and I feel reserved and apprehensive. What do I say? I am feeling insecure. I must have sounded that way on the phone Monday, because my friend said, "I hope you know that you're not bothering me, it's good that you took the time to pick up the phone and call." I have the hardest time reaching out to people, which I think is a fairly typical trait for us co-des.
I just feel out of my element. Maybe that's a good thing. I'm secretly hoping that she'll want to be my sponsor, but it's probably too soon to go down that road.
On a happy note, I am also celebrating my daughter's 5th birthday. She is the light of my life, a pure joy and delight. We're going to do a little swimming (indoors of course!) and eat some cake. Not a bad way to spend a Saturday. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I'll keep you posted on how lunch goes.
Hello out there
4 weeks ago